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poetry by j matthew waters

the spirit guide


you’ve lost yourself again
in the deepness of the woods
where the mind is incapable
of producing concrete thoughts
or having any kind of convictions
overtaken by an energy unseen
and guided by a spirit
that had anticipated your arrival





september two thousand twenty-two
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The Absence


There is an absence that is indefinable
as if the ghost dog who once roamed freely
throughout the house had suddenly departed

It was the cat who first noticed the absence
bringing it to my attention by way of behaviors
that were secondary to her nature
entering my dreams unconventionally
revealing other lives I once lived

In the morning I stand in the shower
warm water washing away dirt & blood &
anything strangely unsettled or emotionless

Going through the motions is an expression
best left for those who have given up
no longer searching & thereby incapable of
finding the smallest of things that had been lost





september two thousand twenty-two
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the body snatchers


the neighborhood
was littered with feral cats
black & white
blue & yellow & green
and every other shade
in between
the majority of them
food stamp carriers
all the others hiding
in the shadows
keeping the rodent population
under control
all the while steering clear
of the recently formed
fleet of drones
locally & affectionately known
as the catnappers





september two thousand twenty-two
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we are exiles


how proud the sun must be
giving life incredulity
inside her own little galaxy

as a member of her third family
she gave me life & took it away
repetitiously

to the point where I was
unmistakably incapable of
learning from past transgressions

and so without fanfare
she banished me from her realm
sent me sailing into interstellar space
hopeful one day another star
would pull me in





september two thousand twenty-two
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on the spirit level


they say it’s not fair
and they’re not wrong
having been in & out
of positions of interest
such as exaltation
neutrality &
documented misery


it has nothing to do
with the failure of democracy
but rather the ignorance
of the many
and the stupidity of the few
—handed down to the latter
by way of failed ideals

never mind that the gaiety
of the past pertained
to a privileged few
who somehow managed
to make-believe
it belonged to the masses
—only to be crushed by them
on the spirit level





september two thousand twenty-two
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wet dream


don’t call us they kept repeating
in my dream
actually they were singing it
don’t call us baby
we’ll call you


it was as if wolfman jack
had somehow gotten in
shadowing me like a wild thing

running at full speed
every chance I could get
only the corners could slow me down
inside this inner city jungle

hailstorms preceded
intensely global temperatures
leaving everyone soaked to the bone
wondering what kind of animal
they had become





september two thousand twenty-two
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in this post-apocalyptic world


I thought it was monday
but it was sunday again
as if six days went missing
blown away by nuclear winds

the world news at nine
didn’t tell me anything
I didn’t already know
living on a wing & a prayer
in this post-apocalyptic world

the great migration
has only just begun
how many sundays may pass
before I must move on





september two thousand twenty-two
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hitchhiking across the galaxy


we keep copying ourselves
but to no avail

the destiny of humanity
is written in stone
dug up and buried
time & again

it used to be
whatever died here
stayed here
but now that we’ve learned
to pierce the dome
we may never return again





september two thousand twenty-two
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the shadow of the successor


fat chances
& second guesses
I’ll pass on placing any bets
[or judgments for that matter]
with such shitty odds

I’ve got no memory issues
—any regrets that may exist
are simply a thing of the past

as far as reconciling with the world
that was never in my hands

I’ve washed them clean
thanks to the goodness
of the almighty
also known as the heir apparent





september two thousand twenty-two
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a shadow of their former selves


he thinks she’s gassed
not drunk
just exhausted to the bone
by way of living
flat-footed & unable to react
like she once used to

he’s not doing much better
pretending to be a bird
surviving
on seeds & roadkill
an occasional
brandy slightly chilled

they sold or gave away
everything
& took their act on the road
convinced there was something
out there
besides consumption





september two thousand twenty-two
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flashpoint


it’s complicated
how the days pass by like years
slowly becoming
as old as the moon
dying
at the end
of its final phase


brand new shadows
appear from the faintest of light
light that speeds
past corners
zeroing in on
a present
that recently existed





september two thousand twenty-two
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Desperado


—with a nod to Don Henley


You don’t call me anymore
my queen of hearts
always out with your fabulous friends
leaving me to reinforce
my habits & my vices
occasionally tinkering with thoughts
turning some into words
into sounds
into symbols
scratching out some sort of picture
a sort of black & white dystopia
search party fully assembled
and sent from above
desperately chasing my senses





august two thousand twenty-two
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exorcising external conflicts by fire


it’s late august & something
is very very wrong

nobody can put their finger on it
but then again
nobody really tries
instead it’s finger pointing
and a bunch of global
[counterproductive] exercises

breakfast is dinner
won’t you come & join me
bacon & tomatoes & farm fresh eggs
yes you heard me right
anyone near or far
I’m out there ringing the bell
the cook’s in the kitchen
bats stirring in the attic

come in come in and take
your feet off at the door
there’s no surveillance here
no propaganda
no weapons
no contraband
only open air & open ideas
inside this roofless abode
where the rains fall & the grass grows
where the truth is acceptance
& lies are burned
down to the ground





august two thousand twenty-two
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late august


to you I can tell nothing
and so I sit & listen for the wind
to bring me something new

if the silence were a shadow
and you retreated
for a time
I would then speak whenever
the sun allowed me to

in the late evening
the sounds of the day
reinvent themselves intensely
—a language all their own
you saying nothing as I
listen for clues





august two thousand twenty-two
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The Non-Visit


You can’t be a doctor if you don’t know the entire parts of the body
— Bernard Jeffrey McCullough


After pulling out
the Good Doc tells me
it’s nice & smooth
— she hands me a tissue
and turns her back
degloving

It’s been a few years
and we both agree
(at my age)
checking in regularly
is more than likely
a Good Thing





august two thousand twenty-two
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through the motions


here we go again
giving praise where praise is due
never to mere mortals
(we should know better)
but perhaps a god a goddess
one who walks beside us

no specific revelation
exists in anyone’s lifetime
for you see any such thing
(if existing one way or another)
must come before the preface
or right after the finale





august two thousand twenty-two
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