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when the wind is so strong


you ask me where I’ve gone
and I say I’ve always been here
even after passing on

I’m more than pretending I’m this
perennial probability
though sometimes I skip a year
and it is then you momentarily
forget all about me

don’t worry I say
I’ve not gone anywhere
always have I been both below
and above the earth
sometimes in full bloom
sometimes scattering seeds
sometimes fast asleep

when the wind is so strong
making you wonder if it’s just air
brushing up against your cheek
that is when you should think again



january two thousand twenty
copyright j matthew waters

Those cold November days


I heard we lost the war again
when will we ever learn
from what I can tell probably never
not as long as the profits keep rolling in

Back in the old neighborhood
kids come and kids go
each generation playing with
weapons just as lethal as the next
most living to tell their stories
precious few never coming home again

When we return year after year
we don’t have a lot to say
though we all know what happened
out in the fields
will always feel like it was yesterday



january two thousand twenty
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the river’s many voices


let us pretend we are starting from scratch
that the sun has yet to reveal its brilliancy
rising above the ageless sea on a cloudless morning
    as if the world itself is being reborn
    free from the exploitation of the past

sudden happiness appears out of thin air
echoing through the valley of the mountains
promising change after years of inner turmoil
    grey thoughts giving way to new ideas
    like old songs playing in a new light

I often wonder about those inevitable days
will it be like floating peacefully down the river
its many voices gradually turning into one
    plainly speaking to me for the first time
    the drawbridge opening on command



january two thousand twenty
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by land or air or sea


it’s never too late to change things up
perfectly fine to stop in your tracks
saying it’s high time to go another way

direction means less than motion itself
be it inward or westward or skyward
whether carving a new path
or repaving a once-abandoned one

when asked the spiritless question
where you see yourself over time
favor companionship over destination



january two thousand twenty
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picture perfect saturday


children stretched across the library lawn
books selected from wooden crates
spotted randomly throughout the area
beach blankets spread out here and there
little ones sitting and reading to themselves
or out loud in small groups
the mid-morning sun shining brightly
across the green expanse
saturday morning visitors walking
in and out of the main doors
not a soul saying a word



january two thousand twenty
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another intervention


we were rehabbing under the bridge
swapping needles and day old bread
keeping the fire alive despite
the dampness in the air

there’s hardly any signal down here
but we had no problem
dialing in songs for the deaf
one rock classic after another

I hadn’t seen my sweetie in weeks
but word on the street says
she’s got to get me into her life
long before the next intervention



january two thousand twenty
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what comes around


days getting longer
mid-morning colder than the day before
pedestrians walking briskly
hands stuffed inside pockets
inaudible words escaping into the air

breathe baby breathe
there’s never been a better time to be alive
everyone knows it can’t be
this cold for that much longer
here take my electric flannel blanket

it’s true we both know
the rains will again return like clockwork
washing away what remains
recalling strange familiarity
perhaps starting the final fateful season




january two thousand twenty
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one-way ticket


I don’t care where you’re from
we’re all temporarily visiting
foreigners in our own little world
or traveling extensively abroad

whether by land or sea or air
we’re randomly cast together
unchosen companions integrated
into an unlikely community
a single entity
be it aboard a bus or ship or plane

departures and arrivals taking place
morning noon and night
loved ones sitting next to strangers
sadistic gamblers laying odds
which ones make it home alive




january two thousand twenty
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casting lots from down below


I’ve been waiting for you to die
for far too long
but now here I am on my own deathbed
just as I had feared
you arriving out of the blue
and looking down at me
the last sight I’m ever going to see

I ask myself what went wrong
all these years wasted
accumulating chopsticks & stones
and buttons & bottle caps
regretting why
I never turned them
into my own trademark piece of art

already they’re talking about who will
take over my room
dozens of rats in the basement
smoking cigars
and throwing weighted dice
some whispering & some yelling
come seven come eleven




january two thousand twenty
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filling my not so little cherry box


you kept things from us
for so many years
since the day you were born
I undoubtedly suppose
crafty and full of light
mysterious and joyously dark
constantly stashing away things
bits and pieces of yourself
you knew would one day be found

all these years having since passed
and still I’m filling the box
you made me with
not-so-accidental artifacts
periodically found in the most
unexpected places
leaving me to imagine
whether or not
you ever left us in the first place




january two thousand twenty
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jack daniels and candlesticks


cancellations and closings
scrolling ad nauseum
alphabetically directly below
animated weather map

the snow never came
like they said it would
though the freezing rain
arrived unexpectedly
sleeting sideways and relentlessly
coating every single wire and branch
from here until next tuesday
putting the city and her
satellites out of commission

there’ll be no welfare checks
not tonight or tomorrow or
maybe ever again
the powers that be giving way
to unapologetic anarchy
all because of a little weather




january two thousand twenty
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ready. aim. fire.


wielding rifle or bow and arrow
shooting apples out of the sky
see how they fall one by one
nobody on the ground to catch them

a collection basket on sunday
quickly filling with thoughts and prayers
empty promises passed from one
lost soul to the next
hush money as they say
as if the original atrocity wasn’t enough

watch where you’re aiming young man
otherwise your fiery missile
could miss and hit
the broadside of the moon
thereby unleashing untold consequences




january two thousand twenty
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where do we go from here


I knew his intentions
from the very beginning
having picked me up just before
noon in the big boat convertible
six rolling rock tall boys
sweating in the back seat

we find ourselves on unfamiliar
backroads without directions
he calmly says
he’s got this one
as we slow things down
and gradually ratchet up the hill

once at the top I close my eyes
he raises his hands off the wheel
suddenly recreating
a scene he’s always known
and me instantly realizing
this time he’s not alone




january two thousand twenty
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though the earth never stops quaking


streetlamps shining
casting eerie shadows
before the dead of dawn
crows waking sparrows
the former curiously trailing
one thousand feet
marching on city streets

some say even though
the earth never stops quaking
the fog of war will one day
dissipate unto itself
giving way to a certain
kind of incomparable light
like an everlasting sunrise




january two thousand twenty
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blind date


I hadn’t shaved in a few days
but at least I showered

I keep telling myself I’m doing
so much better since

they talked me down

and now here I am
a few days later going on

a blind date

smelling somewhat delicious
and sporting a three day beard

as I wait looking out the front window
I keep asking myself

what the hell am I supposed
to talk about




january two thousand twenty
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115 Iowa Avenue


I keep changing for no apparent reason
one nondescript day superseding the next
as if I was back in college

The night before you leave a message
about hooking up at Joe’s Place

Of course I don’t recall your words
until the next morning
and by the time I’m halfway through
19th Century Literature
I’m making up any kind of excuse
to cut the hell loose

It’s 4 pm on a Monday afternoon
and I’m exactly where I want to be
[albeit some forty years later]
ordering a cold one and stringing
together words on ruled paper
laying 50/50 odds this time you’ll show




january two thousand twenty
copyright j matthew waters
all rights reserved

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