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black summer


we left nearly everything
there was no other way
to capture the flag
the only thing that seemed to matter
in the summer of sixty-nine

I remember I had
only wanted to play ball
but that was never in the cards
instead left strategizing
in someone’s low-lit basement

we could only assume
our house had been bombarded
likely laid to waste
while surviving relatives
roamed about like zombies

we had received word
of the headless horse
galloping into the orangish moon
a clear signal it was time to fly
the archers unloading their arsenal





june two thousand twenty-three
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the future is in color


a tightness of the chest
should be an alarm
unable to be turned off
no matter what you do

how do you ignore the pain
does it visit you in your dreams
taking the lead in reverse
memories crystal clear
—but in black & white





may two thousand twenty-three
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a pluperfect kind of past


i.

she doesn’t remember me
not the old rock & roll songs
we used to danced to
taking cocaine breaks
back in the dressing room

ii.

I’m nearly her age
but she looks twice mine
at least from my perspective
— that irreversibility of time

iii.

I hear people saying
when did I get old darling
and they say baby
you’ve been timeless
since the day you were born





april two thousand twenty-three
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flashpoint


it’s complicated
how the days pass by like years
slowly becoming
as old as the moon
dying
at the end
of its final phase


brand new shadows
appear from the faintest of light
light that speeds
past corners
zeroing in on
a present
that recently existed





september two thousand twenty-two
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push and pull


living in the present
yes I get that who doesn’t
taking in the sights and sounds
as if you’re seeing the world
around you each and every day
for the very first time

but alas what challenges
the present creates
especially when piecing
together past and future events
defining and redefining
perceptions and realities
not to mention those ever elusive
dream interpretations

so here you are sitting
at an outdoor cafe
alone or perhaps with a
real or imagined friend
living in the moment as they say
never pulling back or pushing forward
somehow knowing every single word
to every single song streaming
out into the open air





april two thousand nineteen
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rewriting the nuclear era


summer has never been so close
knocking hard
loud and clear like a thunderclap

if you didn’t hear that
you may as well be deaf
I murmured
but there was nobody around
to absorb my spoken words
except for nightbirds and spiders
and hackers inside my laptop

there are many weeds needing
pulling and much soil needing turning
I keep telling myself
but in the middle of the night
none of that is occurring
at least not in real time

come monday morning nobody
may remember exactly what transpired
whether it be a history rewritten
or saplings thriving free of gasoline





june two thousand seventeen
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homecoming


unlocked
she turned the handle and
let herself in
supplanting footsteps
left ages ago
when she could barely breathe

standing tall in the landing
she listened for her
heartbeat barely audible
down the hallway
eyes looking waywardly
as shoulders effortlessly
let go the knapsack

unashamed
she stepped forward
and further into the past
kicking every single ghost
trying to settle back in


january two thousand fourteen
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ultra echo


self-inflicted physical pain
is nothing compared to
once abandoned realities
appearing out of the thinnest of air
unfurling into razor-sharp focus
and leaving you crippled
and crying
and praying for the comfort
of that long lost world
inside a world
inside a world
inside a world



july two thousand thirteen
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embryo


I entered the world
like a flower blooming
an experience blocked
from a memory dying
to understand
how the subliminal past
led me to this time
where I beget the pistil
and the petal


november two thousand twelve
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