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Fishing trip


We’re supposed to be on the road by now
but Ted can’t seem to find the car keys
and DeSalvo’s rolling joints in the next room
sitting Indian style in the loveseat

I’m busy stuffing my backpack with
chocolate bars and graham crackers
and marshmallows and assortment
of individual servings of breakfast cereals
and Frito Lay snacks

Ted is arguing with his folks who
never seem to grow old
his mother with a dirty dishrag in her hand
his father smoking Marlboro Reds
and lambasting his son for chores undone

I’m in the garage now
stocking the cooler with Bud heavy
and whole milk and boxes of Sunny D
carton of 18 raw eggs and Oscar Mayer bacon

Let’s go let’s go I yell but nobody hears me
DeSalvo’s now out of my sight
most likely licking the edge of the rolling paper
eyes smiling and marveling
at his own imperfections

Hey Ted where the hell’s the ice I yell
but I don’t think he heard me
but I do think I heard his dad slap him
upside his head

Finally he comes out all red faced
DeSalvo right behind him smiling
checking his pants for a Bic lighter

Everything okay I ask
Yeah Ted says let’s get the fuck out of here
we’re taking the Lincoln Continental




march two thousand eighteen
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listening to singles on a friday night


she had this voice
sultry and sad
band behind her
rhythmically energetic
and ever so melancholic
mesmerizing really
freezing you in thought
and action

there is this trumpet
somewhere in the middle
a wake up call really
shaking you to the core
reminding you
how much you miss her voice
and how badly
you want her back again




march two thousand eighteen
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partial recall


I receive emails from myself
little hints about what remains undone
yellow sticky note reminders
what calls to return
colors needing washing
wrist watch in need of repair
gas running low
milk soon expiring
jeans day is friday
remember the alamo
it happened somewhere down south
somewhere in texas I do believe

you remind yourself to google it
continuously remind yourself
to expand your mind
lest it begin to shrink
(quite unlike the universe)
until one day you awaken
and see yourself in the mirror
barcode tattooed on your forehead
data represented by varying
widths and spacings of parallel lines
its contents containing
every single memory worth recalling




march two thousand eighteen
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a winter that never was


I jotted down some thoughts at 11:15
central daylight time
vernal equinox restarting the clock
snowflakes flat as silver dollar pancakes
hitting concrete slightly warmer than freezing
disappearing like some magic trick

trapped behind this rectangular window
I gaze past rooftops at a sun that isn’t there
daydreaming of warmer days
clouds casting shadows over my
sixth house of logistics

meanwhile everything in front of me
is moving backwards
pedestrians wrapped in wool clothing
pigeons dressed in mock turtlenecks
fedex trucks double parked and idling
my incoherent thoughts
scrambling to recreate
a winter that never was




march two thousand eighteen
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promises made in haste


we learned to swim in arizona bay
long after the great shake
the one predicted ad nauseum
for a century or more
predicated on the fact
tectonic plates eventually
can’t help themselves

we talked often about migrating
down to all saints bay
but by the time paper dreams
developed into concrete plans
santa monica was already
crumbling into the sea

flashbacks take over in no particular order
replaying those days somewhere
near baghdad
digging trenches west of the euphrates
smoking camels and breathing
out fire and sand
promising ourselves under starlight
one day we’ll make it back
all the way to southern california




march two thousand eighteen
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I’m about to break


spring is near and so are tears
sorrow giving way to joy
as it’s prone to do this time of year

looking back sitting on the edge
how words make no sense
thoughts dissolving into ignorance

energetic god of light awakens
thawing you from your misery
casting you back onto the streets
where you begin to flourish again

scattered like a flower’s seed
you resurface in cracks and seams
like an unexpected child

and those forgotten words
seemingly buried in the past
suddenly burst onto the scene




march two thousand eighteen
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Who knew the other side of you


Dani wouldn’t be caught dead
marching in any damn parade
she had bigger dreams in mind
than floating down inner city streets

She wore black on the outside
painted her face so as not to be seen
but on the inside everything was green

There are so many ways
to break the cycle
so tell me what keeps you hiding
inside these temporary shadows

I knew you when you were but a child
how you used to chase sparrows
climbing trees and singing songs
pretending the world could do you no harm

Somewhere along the line
you are born again
awakening like grass among wildflowers
elbowing for space and praying to starlight
reaching out for the next sunrise




march two thousand eighteen
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sailboats on the mississippi


she’s an artist
a watercolorist to be exact
her brushes her most prized possessions

she hardly notices as I brush her hair
her mind and soul recreating sailboats
racing parallel on the mississippi
winds and currents playing havoc on canvas
fading sun filtering through cumulus clouds

I’m lost in her world
imitating master backstrokes
eventually drowning in complicated brilliance



march two thousand eighteen
copyright j matthew waters
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lemon alabaster


“I’m sorry I can’t come
to the phone right now
I’m working on my imagination”

What kind of message is that
I ask her
perturbed about not getting
a return call three days now

she’s doing her nails on the
propped-up la-z-boy
eyes looking down
muted x-files rerunning on the wall

it’s not a message
it’s a greeting
she says
still looking down
working her file like some
violin virtuoso

she’s a bitch
that’s all I got to say
my eyes darting about
searching for the remote

I’ve dreamed up a new color she says
do you want to know what it is

no I do not I reply
I just want her to call me back



march two thousand eighteen
copyright j matthew waters
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the tattoo artist


it was a wild party
keg of german bock on the back deck
kitchen counter lined with an
assortment of spirits
accompanied by cut up lemons and limes
stuffed olives and orange slices
and pickle spears
juices and sodas and buckets of ice

I chose to play it cool in the parlor
hanging out by the stereo
waiting for my chance
to control the music
chatting with girls who don’t drink
and smiling at wallflowers
who rarely speak

there were many couples
invited to the bash
but as the night wore on
they seemed to become
interchangeable
and some who came with none
departed with many
and those who came attended
wandered unattended
waltzing through rooms
and hallways and stairways
howling like lonely felines to the blues
blaring through bose speakers

by the time midnight arrived
I had the needle all to myself
soon becoming the most popular
person in the place
taking requests and
rolling up sleeves of strangers
injecting happiness into their skin
with the finest ink known to man




march two thousand eighteen
copyright j matthew waters
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waltzing before daybreak


wind chimes hardly whisper
interrupting predawn dreams
like a first passionate kiss
bluebird angels sighing within
wishing to imitate
branches blossoming
the first sign of spring

waning crescent moon calls you
from your slumber
mars and saturn subconsciously
tugging at your comforter
like impatient felines
needing to usher in
all that is welcoming



march two thousand eighteen
copyright j matthew waters
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It’s my island


It’s wise not to force anything
but sometimes you have to go with your gut
cut your losses and move on

This place isn’t for me anymore
sleepwalking by day and
scrambling for words at night
giving the nod to asinine ideas
paying at the pump
ordering groceries on the cloud
drinking craft beer at overpriced taprooms

With google maps or better yet
google satellite
you can go just about anywhere anytime
like the streets of Malta for example
where you can find a flat for
500 pounds a month
where all you need are
polaroid sunglasses and camera
sandals for your feet
a single speed bicycle
and an Internet connection
to check on your brokerage account





march two thousand eighteen
copyright j matthew waters
all rights reserved

Sunday driving on winding roads


I’m riding shotgun in this fast car
Tracy Chapman behind the wheel
informing me in a singsong kind of way
she’s got a plan to get me out of here

with Tom Petty blaring out the radio
we’ve no choice but singing right along
Del in the backseat harmonizing
wind blowing back his head of hair

I pretend she keeps smiling my way
eyes on centerline and back again
McCartney beginning to suggest
she should let me drive her car
and maybe she’ll love me





march two thousand eighteen
copyright j matthew waters
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reconstructing until kingdom come


out of thin air paper castles
tower above cumulus clouds
constructed by men skilled at
shaping dreams into
concrete ideas

I remained at ground zero
unfolding plans on a tabletop
saying look see here
this is where we must rebuild

and so we burned everything
on the spot
a virtual bonfire slowly growing
visible by satellite
smoke in the sky billowing
shaped like an ark
carrying away pairs of anything
that ever was or will be





march two thousand eighteen
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start of a brand new day


there are no secrets in poetry
only rhyme and reason
and quiet determination

ambitious are young hearts
dying to be heard above
the din of repetition

fear not the word of others
rather practice the art
of reading and imitation

seemingly elusive dreams
are best captured at dawn
as they begin transitioning
like alien interlopers





march two thousand eighteen
copyright j matthew waters
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come sail away


one day I awaken to darkness
next night into the light

how many times I’ve been born
depends upon many factors
such as number of hours in a day
or air temperature at ten or
twenty or thirty thousand feet

wind seems to be the great constancy
bringing about change to a troubled planet
mother nature’s secret ingredient
constantly turning inside her earthen pot
creating recycled challenges
and unlocking old doors

no matter how strong the desire
to stay grounded
just remember even on the
calmest days and nights
sailing vessels never truly stand still





march two thousand eighteen
copyright j matthew waters
all rights reserved

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