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house across the street


it seems a ghost I know may be dying
once firmly grounded
has suddenly opened second story windows
red curtains flowing outward like fire
white doves waiting in the wings

I was sitting on the front porch
right across the street
rocking on the slider and sipping
arnold palmers and drawing
cigarette smoke to my lungs

at first a single entity easily escaped
but as time quietly passed
locusts hungrily congregated
wailing and screaming and extolling
forming their very own shadow

I watched dumbfoundedly
their storm drifting northwesterly
saying under my breath ‘good riddance’
knowing it was just a matter of time
before new neighbors rolled in




august two thousand eighteen
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quick reality check


welcome to my new reality
facts succumbing to feelings
new leo moon spotlighting
authority figures weighing in

apples hanging lower than low
yet unrealistically out of reach
whether stretching or jumping
or wishing upon my favorite star

I’ve been shot down many times
to my dismay I’m still standing
currently resting inside 10th house
refusing to give up my seat




august two thousand eighteen
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single speed


mind may be racing
but heart is slowing down
counting days until
current surroundings
suddenly take a turn

she says come look
and see for yourself
sphere has but one speed
yet all inside her
tumbles chaotically

I believed her
like I believed in rain
softly falling
keeping me company
breathing on our own




august two thousand eighteen
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lifting up the blinds


there is an undefinable sweetness
lingering in my mind
leaving me curious as to whether
I may be dead or alive

I’ve been walking in a fog now
for nearly a fortnight
kicking the dirt beneath my feet
wondering if it’s the very earth
I was miraculously born into

there’s no need to worry
or so say the angels in the field
shadowing flock beneath their wings
guiding them toward shelter

sooner or later morning fog will clear
burned away by memories
past and present and future




august two thousand eighteen
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anomaly


remove yourself and retreat to that special place
where chains no longer bind you
free from fault and pleasantly surprised you’re still alive

worries are but worlds away
that smile inside you a constant reminder
there is work yet to be done

I pause and consider choices
I’ve made or not made in good conscience
and yet I’m still bleeding

I’m never quite sure which gods to believe in
whether they be friend or foe
forever knowing I’m just an anomaly in my own right




august two thousand eighteen
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finding your comfort zone


midnight arrives and a sudden
something wakes me from my slumber
a strike of lightning perhaps
a thunderclap inside my head

I can’t breathe here lying on this bed
lazily and precariously I remove
myself off the comforter
nearly in a trance I pretend I’m
sleepwalking down the steps

I’m far from alone on the main floor
sounds of human breathing
omnipresent and unmistakably eerie
incoherent words babbling barely

I distance myself from dark thoughts
and curl up against sunroom door
cool to the touch my warm body relaxes
moonlight waxing and shimmering
exposing my off-white stripes




august two thousand eighteen
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magnanimous immortality


emotions are in charge of the world
and my own creations are nothing but
manifestations that are either killing me
or my next door neighbor
forces sending us in different directions
either deep inside our own agony
or propelling us outwardly into the
beauty of the next world
whichever seems to be reasonably
relevant at the time




august two thousand eighteen
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portrait of an artist


you’ve a fearless imagination she tells him
as he positions himself at the easel
placing certain charcoals on the tray

you’re beautifully sublime this morning he replies
I love what you’ve done to your eyes
but please stay relaxed and keep talking to me
and hold that cigarette up just a little higher

I’ve been so bored lately she exhales
cloud of smoke drifting toward the back light
her neck craning backwards
her head dropping back on the futon
jet black hair sinking into white pillow

I know dear I know he says
sketching feverishly
stopping ever so briefly for a mouthful
of homemade farm fresh ale

I’ve missed you she says
but you’re always coming and going
you never have time for me anymore

yes yes yes he says
please pull your slip up just a little higher
I need to feel more of your inner mystique




august two thousand eighteen
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his eloquent elocution


he was electrocuted like some uncommon criminal
right there on live television for all the galaxy to see

federation of planets feared his demise was
anything but permanent
summoning their agents across vast jurisdictions
as herod once did

there is no telling what will come next
once the newborn has survived infancy
growing unnoticed and unadulterated
ultimately mastering his eloquent elocution




august two thousand eighteen
copyright j matthew waters
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the interview


she asked me to talk about myself
and I started off by saying
I didn’t know where to begin
but I’ll pretend as if I do

off course it was a loaded question
so I proceeded to take a deep breath
and quietly backed away from the ledge

I was a middle child and therefore
often left to my own devices I said
further clarifying I work well independently
but can positively strive in groups as well
should circumstances warrant

slowly she blinked her eyes
nodding smilingly
taking the end of her pencil to her chin
politely asking me to proceed
and for a very brief moment in time
I felt as if I had been down this path before
had already lived and breathed
inside her complex company




august two thousand eighteen
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five hundred pieces


the creation does not manifest itself
without mindless coordination
between hand and eye
without hours of problematic troubleshooting
deliberately testing pairs of pieces
that appear to be identical

as days & nights pass by
I find ways to make each one brand new
unsure what my next move may be
but certain to find that one tile
capable of instilling inspiration
or uncovering a moment of mastery

    the piece I possess
    will unlock all the mysteries of the world

    the piece I possess
    will reveal all our earthly perplexities


unsure why the effort ever was initiated
fully aware the completion is only a beginning
I sort through the five hundred pieces anyway
confident that the opening of the
multi-dimensional looking-glass
will produce an image I’ve longed to understand




august two thousand eighteen
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the artist and I


we will cross the river
the artist and I
and we will find a new outlet
to call our home
and we will sleep as one
falling in and out of
romantic daydreams
evening sun hiding her
eyes behind decorative fan
rising moon reaching out
to gently awaken us
so that we may create again



july two thousand eighteen
copyright j matthew waters
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twenty-four crayons


staring at a blank white wall
you remember how once
it was covered with rainbows
and parrots and sunshine
apple trees in full bloom
and children pointing up at the sky
clouds and birds and kites
poking their imaginations

it’s saturday morning
you’re sitting in the conservatory
patiently waiting for sun
to eclipse the treeline
casting her magical rays
on your box of twenty-four crayons
anxious to start replacing
that which was washed away




july two thousand eighteen
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mockingbird


close your eyes and count backwards from three
and see what the world will give you

close your eyes and make a wish you’ve never wished before

to be sure your soul may be hurting but there is nothing
wrong with your sight or your heart or your mind

hush little baby and close your big beautiful eyes
for it’s time to dream of new worlds that await you

hush little baby and let loose your imagination
and whatever it is you may do
please don’t you cry




july two thousand eighteen
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suspended breaths in retrograde


all these years I’ve denied my past
having brushed aside
my quirks and missteps as
everyday lessons
picking myself up without regret or remorse
moving forward with an uncertain purpose
as if there could never be an end

and now there is oxygen to consider
to feed those inner thoughts
reviving them so to speak
weighing good points against bad
neither condemning nor condoning
but simply acknowledging
how a young boy died to be a man




july two thousand eighteen
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not your final destination


I heard it on the radio
childhood memories
reformatted for the digital age
revolutionary forces
transformed from past to present
longtime secrets resurrected
playing loud and clear on
intergalactic airwaves




july two thousand eighteen
copyright j matthew waters
all rights reserved

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